merry crisis EP

by Butterfly Bandage

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released December 26, 2015

big thanks to jinx george for providing the original image for the cover art

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Track Name: happy birthday (for sage)
on a regular basis
the best and the worst coincide
on a regular basis
i fear for a life
cause on a regular basis
im happy youre alive
and on a regular basis
almost everyone we know wants to die

its not hard
to make someone feel pain
and its not hard
to make someone feel ashamed
but its very hard
to get through the day, through the week, through the year
happy birthday

on a regular basis
the light of the day turns to night
on a regular basis
people will carry on in spite
of the regular basis
on which pain will consume the human mind
and on a regular basis
things do not improve in time
but on a regular basis
we can never know the things that we will find

and its not hard
to make someone feel pain
and its not hard
to make someone feel ashamed
but its very hard
to get through the day, through the week, through the year
happy birthday
Track Name: i will wear a shirt that says "i have given up" but i will not give up
u said its not like u
i dont know what i am like
u said u neednt worry
i will make sure its alright

i want to think i dont care what u do
im not bothered by u
im alright
i want to think what ur saying isnt new
of course i noticed that
im very bright or we’re very tight
easy to sleep at night

or in the day or any time
im so laid back i have nothing to hide
im just a normal kid living my life
i am cis and straight, i dont wanna die
i wanna live forever dont give me back to the sky
i have always been and ill always b alright
if u still believe that i am very surprised
that is to say, u worry me and its fine
i have not given up but i want to leave behind the lies
Track Name: im the kid
im the kid who wont believe u love me
but im still surprised when my closest friends betray me
i interpret almost every action as hostility toward me
but then when u finally definitely do something awful im not ready

i wish i was ready to die
i wish i was ready to die tonight
i wish i was ready to die
no one loves me no matter what u say
i wish i was ready to die
i wish i was ready to die tonight
i wish i was ready to die
i doubt i will ever be ready

im the kid who wont believe u love me
hopefully the life i live serves as a lesson for posterity
i wish there were more examples of people older than me
who are transgender especially non-binary
so i dont have another reason to see myself dying before i hit 30
im always singing about suffering
but really i dont want to become a tragedy

please dont let me become a tragedy

i wish i was ready to die
i wish i was ready to die tonight
i wish i was ready to die
no one loves me no matter what u say
i wish i was ready to die
i wish i was ready to die tonight
i wish i was ready to die
i doubt i will ever be ready
x2

im the kid who won't believe u love me
(im the kid)
im the kid who can't tell if ur talking to me
(im the kid)
im the kid who doesn't know what to think
(im the kid)
im the kid who's literally afraid to eat or drink
(im the kid)
x2
im the kid who won't believe u love me
Track Name: time
its been a long time
since ive heard from u
and its been even longer
since ive known what to do
with myself and with my life
surprise im a sacrifice
i keep myself alive cause thats what u would like
yeah im fine im fine howve u been since u died
u hate to disappoint but its pretty much the same
do u remember the good old days
when we were like

i need some time
and u need some time
i want to die
and u want to die
i cant sleep at night
and u cant sleep at night
do u know how much ive tried
u asked me how long do u have to stay alive

its been a long time
since ive heard from u
and i have spent the interim
thinking of everything i could do
that doesnt involve me ending up
useless and forgotten
if i could be anyone
ill just leave with this thought
and i dont even ask for much
but i would just like to be of some use
just like u
even when we were like

i need some time
and u need some time
i want to die
and u want to die
i cant sleep at night
and u cant sleep at night
do u know how much ive tried
u asked me how long do u have to stay alive

its been a long time
Track Name: feeling pt. 2 (non-canon): brokencyde
ive hoped ive prayed
no more feeling
am i afraid
im afraid im afraid
i cant listen
i cant hear u
i cant speak and
i cant breathe i cant breathe

hate me
hate u
hate all that i do
i should never have tried
cr*zy
fear u
u will hurt me too
i wish i would have died

im just kidding
im not kidding
haha laughing
suffering suffering
its so funny
pain is hilarious
i cant speak and
i cant breathe i cant breathe

empty
no use
can i take the truth
im running out of time
thinking
ill lose
everything, excuse:
i am broken inside